::fellen to a million pieces...

leave mi alone.....::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 12:18 AM:.

::Im jus extremely bothered by sumthing...and i cant cant solve it... y?

think im jus gona stay sInGLe for a very long time..

starting to feel useless... in alot of ways.. not being able to meet those once simple requirements.. its jus a different ball game all tgt when u are out of sch..

from a guy once full of potential.. to a useless bum who has no immediate future.. sigh...

too depress to continue...

for the first time.. i feel like being anti-social...::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 12:00 AM:.
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::iM worried..

im sad...

im furious...

im disappointed...

i guess i haf jus 101 things to bitch about... (jus a figure of speech man.. lol)

Here it goes...

1) i was freakingly misunderstood by my officer.. darn~ im not trying to get away frm ndp k... if not y did i spend my own freaking oredi running dry money on that stupid uniform @ $60 a piece.. dUh~~

2) mEnG opened my wound on yesterday again.. geezz.. know he didnt mean it but.. wao lao ehh.. do u know how it feels.. jialat lah... how to recover liddat u tell me... sigh... read a blog that i shldnt.. my happiness level drop to a new low sia...

3)The stupid tester refuses to come again 2day... if anybody fail again.. they will fail the course... im more worried abt my man.. (lol... fail still so hao lian...)

4) sHit man.. i was kana bad mouth 2day... if u are a man.. jus come straight to me n tell mi FREAK... u r not doin gd neither.. dUh~ luckily my man is on my side.. wat u say doesnt matter.. at least i get to know ur true colours...

LoVe is jus driving mi crazy... or shld u say the lack of it..

things are getting jus abit too complicated... i dunno wat i wan... i might be yearning it frm the wrong person... dun dare to take the risk... how?

my blog is getting abit boring...

friends award comming up soon..

stay tuned...::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 7:03 PM:.
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::Jus tok to my mum... its been a long time since i had a tok wif her.. unlike in the past.. when i can tell her almost everything.. i guess the magnitiude of the things that ive done will surely scare the daylights out of her..

i wunldnt say that my confession didnt bring her any shock... but she did mention that she had oredi guessed it.. now im starting to wonder if the news will be as well recieve for my dad..

Certainly after the tok.. i had this load of my chest.. but whether could i solve it fall into a whole different ball game all tgt..

thankz JIansheng for that moet chardon... but u are damn lousy... left mi alone =P

for my new found friends... thanks...::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 7:08 PM:.
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::Wat a sAturday... and i really shld jus get use to it..

jus have to accept this as a member of the Singles Club.. wat makes it worse is im in the "my ex gf get attach fast fast aft break up" club.. i feel so sick emotionally... nursing a new wound over the yet heal old wound...

so... because the many diff changes.. at the end... everything was call off.. geezz... does it haf to happen this week.. sigh... i have to jus get use to it as part n parcel of Singles Club...

mayb im heading down dbl o..

mayb im jus going to slp..

mayb i'll find wendy for ktv..

mayb mayb mayb..::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 8:02 PM:.

::I wish i was a kid.. where emotions are jus so pure n simple...

when i say im sad.. i mean it...

as i grow older... i seem to run out of adjectives to describle how i feel...

imagine.. jealousy.. betrayl... disappointment.. anger.. disgust... extreme saddness... confusion all rushing thru your veins at the same time... forcing my tear ducts to work overtime..

weep like a child at wine flair yesterday.. i guess this was the first time that i did that in public... tried stopping my tears.. but i didnt succeed.. my head was filled with memories aft memories... fuelling my tears... from a drop of tears.. it became an endless stream.. frm a silent cry.. it erupted into a uncontrollable wailing..

i thank God that thru these time... i had meng zhiwei n rachal with me...

im waiting for my chance to come again... again... again...::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 1:44 PM:.
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::computer games and being single has a co-relation.. n they are positively related...


25/06/06

aT MinG's hse

mE: hey wat game are u playing? maple arh?

Ming: it's frm yahoo games...

mE: orH~ very interesting meh?

Ming (beaming with pride): see.. this is my own virtual shop.. im now holding the rank higher den ah wei... n i started later den him.. (and he rattles on n on about about his best friend online....)

mE: Look wat singlehood has done to you!

but deep down i was jus as guilty.. i compeleted imperialisum twice.. halfway thru black n whie... and i completed 2 season on the championship manager..

i dun wanna become a geek!

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watched the gErmany match yest at wine flair... guess it jus turn into my fav hangout ler... its cozy.. near my hse... and haf ktv...

was with Meng... Jasmine, zhikai, rOger n ah yI yest... weird combination huh... haha...

we gathered for a same cause... we were all victims of michelle n danny...

MICHELLE AND DANNY FRM ZOUK ARE SUPER GIAN PENG DO NOT TRUST EM

Heed my warning... pls dun haf any money dealings with em... more likely den not... they will jus take and not return... if you press em for payment.. they will jus drag you on... no pick up your fone calls or reply your msg and hope you forget about it...

they are the most "gIan peng" couple i have ever seen..

1) dun pay when she lose mj

2) always "share" drinks with other pple but nvr pay bac

3) will jus pang say her friends the very last time

4) always lend $$ frm pple but dun pay bac.. and the amt can be in hundreds

Basically they are the most disgusting couple i have ever seen... they basically try to live off their friends and exPects their friend to feed em..


PS: hey michelle.. if u even happen to look at my blog... i challenge u to sue me for libel n slander... prove that wat i've said above is untrue.. n i dare you... but if u even plan to sue... plus read this... i dun wanna see you ending up like Mr NKF... when he sue a straits time reporter but at the end of the day all the allegations are true...::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 5:57 PM:.
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