::hAveN blogged since last week... well well... alot of changes this week too... hmm... lets start from monday.. i'll be posting out soon.. yup... it was suppose to be on wed.. but they extended.. but as long as im posting out... im not complaining...

nothing happening this week.. been spending sumtime with a new friend.. lol.. nice company i would say... in a way.. we are feeling the same pain... same situation.. doing the same stupid thing.. in a way i felt that im a gal emotionally.. *gRiNz* but watever that is... i guess we make a perfect "couple" in reminding wat shld be done and wat shld not..

a quote i have for you.. my pretty nice new found friend...
" a guy is not worth your love if he doesnt admit and change his mistake"

Been thinging alot lately.. about my own life.. my paths.. my future... kinda lost.. in the sense i could'nt realli fulfil wat i set out to acheive.. haven started studying.. work life is in a mess.. lol.. plus my love life.. or shld i say the lack of it... getting sick of repeating these points in my blog again and and again.. but these is exactly wat im facing now... plus there are other things cant be say out... you c arh.. pple keep kana charge in court for expressing their views... although i believe in freedom of speech.. i think lets beta not try out the legal system in Singapore.. which stands higher than the freedom of speech concept...

10 tHinGs that can make me happy
1) get posted out
2) be out with friends
3) to recieve a call from her
4) to feel loved
5) be truely finacially independent
6) go to mambo
7) go ktv with.. wendy..hazel.. zhiwei.. cat.. chloe n company
8) bowling
9) petrol prices continue to drop
10)find the love of my life... mayb i oredi found but i jus cant keep her by my side..::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 8:26 PM:.
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::nope.. this time round its not really me.. altho u know... i nvr quite recover yet.. its my friend.. but anyhw she is a pretty nice gal.. pretty as is real pretty.. nice as in nice... lol.. sumtimes it amazes me hw gal can do anything... realli ANYthing.. n everything for the boyfriends.. accepting things that SHOULD NOT BE ACCEPTED...

giRls... amazing creatures made with the ability to do anything in the name of love.. gEez.. learn to protect yourself.. leave if there is a need.. clingin on with sumthing which is oredi gone is not gona help..

hope thing will turn out beta for her..::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 2:01 PM:.
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::yawnzz.. jus woke up... when to qing's hse to play mahjong.. wah.. lost 20 buckz...

saw gui gui's blog.. yah.. nowadays all the blogs is about sad things.. esp regards to relationship.. look at hazel.. she said her's was ard 10% to 20% of sad entry.. haha.. i think mine is 10% to 20% of happy memories ba... i din want it to be this way too... but i cant help it.. hai~~

trying very hard to make good things happen.. i used to wait for it to happen.. but sad to say... its hard to jus wait and not do anithing..

btw.. thanks johnny for your comments but tell you.. my bowling is lousy ler.. wait for you to be bac and we ask little bowl out for a game k?::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 2:56 PM:.
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::bAC At home.. frm JB city sq.. yup went there again... sianz.. when ktv wif junhao.. 2 sad single guys singing sad love songs... haha~~ wat a joke.. when shopping for awhile... he bought a powerful lighter.. while i when shopping for earrings for my 2 new holes.. haha~~.. nw cat can truly call mi sister ler..

came bac.. saw jer on msn.. get to chat abit.. saw a blogskin yest while doing up my blog.. thot she might like it.. well i was wrong... it was emily.. one of her fav in the past.. guess it was too gotic for her nw.. wanted to show good examples to her youths.. reasonable.. my worse fears.. she din save her previous blog code.. opps.. i screw up.. sad...

sumtimes i tink im good for nothing.. u think so 2? leave it in my taggie den..

Lets do a poll.. is daniel good for nothing?

comments open till this fri midnight. entries are free but subjected to screening::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 9:13 PM:.

::yup.. i did sumthing to my blog.. after blogging my last entry i decided that my blog is abit too boring.. abit too quiet.. so i added music.. i added sum animation to my mouse.. u have to understand.. nowadays.. or at least this wk for sure.. im super free.. so u all can expect to see new additions to my blog..

First hear this song zhu wo shen ru kua li at ktv.. a sad song that reflects a lonely person on her birthday.. deep down back den.. i had a feeling hey.. it might apply to me to.. sad enff.. thats how i felt this birthday.. aniway.. back to the blog..

Of cos i have to gif credits to e pple that help me to do up all this.. I have to thank Daniel.. da niu.. and xiao pang... As u know im a finacial student so w/o their help.. their is no way that i can do it up..

On a seriouse note.. it is also becos of the very fact that im a finacial student.. that i copied all these.. so sori to those who look at my blog and start to "wow daniel is good" sori to disappoint u guys.. daniel jus copied.. cut n paste isnt that hard u know.. dan can do so can u!

Credits to tong tong... pls dun ask me to intro k.. no.. not that im selfish or wat but the fact is i dunno her.. its common lah.. found her on blogskin.com added her in my links too.. a young gal.. born in 92.. onli 13 wor..

all right.. in the meantime njoy my blog while i go n search for sumthing interesting to add..::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 2:28 AM:.

::well well... it's the start of my lonely one week holiday. Most pple working will not do wat i did i suppose. Not planning anything and jus take such a long period of leave. hmm.. guess i jus wanted a break from that living hell ba. Spend the nite with Cat on Sunday.. alot of toking and gossiping. haha~~ no wonder she calls mi sister nowadays..

was very down yest afternoon.. it was so bad that i cried.. ohh.. like nobody's business i tell u.. was actually triggered of by sumthing.. Sad.. after calming down.. i went straight to malaysia.. yup.. JB.. City Square.. on impulse i got another 2 ear studs on my left ear.. came back and spent my nite with claire watch movies..

Spent my day alone watching the dvds i bought yest.. din know that life can be that meaningless and boring.. finish 2 shows... met wendy for dinner.. after which to seletar.. upper seletar to be exact for a chat... talk about my problems.. think she is one of the few that know the most details.. gossip abit..

the takeaway point of the day is that im missing sumthing in my life.. a part of my life is void... and guess wat its relationship.. a factor which i couldnt handle during that worse period of my life.. yet a factor that can play a major part in offering comfort by gifing the love care and support... the very factor that can make me feel beta..

irony.. life is so full of irony...::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 12:52 AM:.
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::noeing yourself i think is the most impt thing in one's life... well.. i think in our short life.. not many can achieve that.. seriously im trying to understand myself too.. but.. yah.. its hard.. to tink that you urself.. dun even know urself.. irony? but true in many cases..

Purpose of knowing yourself... hmm.. so that u can change for the beta... so that your can haf more control over ur emotions.. so that u dun trouble those ard u... so that.. i think there is much much more plus pts to knowin yourslf..

today i was in the car.. with ZW.. suddenly he ask mi.. issit veri forunate that u haf us as ur friends... he dun mean it in a mocking way of cos.. and i thot.. indeed i am... frm the start of the blog.. u all shld notice that i was thankin my friends all the way.. supported mi thru my darkest days.. thanks man...

2nd.. know urself so that u will not trouble pple... hmm.. think im not that cut out to play mahjong.. in fact yes... we are still in the mist of ot since 3.. yawnz... nw my partner took over.. poor huiqing got so work up whenever i try to discard the wrong cards... cat is also buay ta han with the speed ler.. i shall jus polish up my skills b4 i jio em for mahjong again...

Sunday... marks the start of my one week holiday.. took in a hurry.. w/o planning ani thing.. but jus wanted a break... so i took it b4 anibody could confirm if there is ani overseas trip.. hope i dun waste this holiday... at least.. i will start wif a malaysia trip tml... n we shall c where we go frm there...

so ani1.. who is free this week for anithing.. pls.. pls call mi yah...

ps: to jer.. if u happen to read this.. haf a good time working... i think u will like the job as much as sgx..::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 8:28 AM:.
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::wAts the purpose of blogging.. tO informed pple about ur daily happenings? tO treat it as a diary and keep records of wAt happen? tO express urself cos u haf no one to turn to for ur problems? tO jus express ur views on issues and announce it to every1 u know?

nt been blogging for a very long time.. if u notice i even skip my bday.. if it was last years.. e entry would be sumthing like " this is the happiest day of my life.. the best birthday ever! jEr treat me to the top of the M for a wonderful dinner.. it was followed by a surprise gatherin of all my friends at lips cafe! they even bought mi the Sims 2 for my birthday! bEsT bIrtHdaY ever!"

weLL this year.. nothing much was done.. but i still haf to gif credits for a few friends who made my bday feel a little bit like my special day.. first is the mAMBO regulars.. pple like cat.. zen.. huiqing.. michelle.. ken.. zhikai.. for their nite at ktv.. one of the first few pple to wish mi.. den come pple who msg or called mi at the stroke of midnight.. den is a special treat by zhiwei.. wendy.. hazel..

Thanks guys.. hafing said that its still my lousiest bday 2 date.. no guys... u all did great.. esp the mambo regulars n the zhiwei trioz.. its jus my prob i suppose.. a big part of my life is missing.. working hard to fill up the void but in vain..

im always an optimistic person.. not realli so now.. but nevertheless was hoping to end my miserable stint in my company and hopfully set my life back on the right track.. getting wat i want back into my life.. October shall be a new start for me.. a changing pt..

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yest was the last day of mambo.. b4 it closes fo a month long renovation.. the place was damn pack.. got nearly got into a fight.. song was not realli gd.. but turn for the beta towards e end of the nite.. now every1 within the grp seems 2 haf tis hidden probs.. altho we mit up.. haf fun.. but deep inside.. every1 seem to haf this prob in life which is botherin em.. sori zen took ur plc.. u look sian for the whole nite.. tsk tsk.. we r pple on the same boat i guess..

mAnage to apply leave for next week.. yes the whole of next week.. needed a break badly.. realli badly.. planned to go malaysia.. looking for companies.. any1 interested??::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 1:32 AM:.
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