::n im so dead...::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 11:12 AM:.
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::changed my blogskin yest... its time... guess its time to move on.. but changing jus the blogskin doesnt mean i haf a change of heart.. in a way my heart is still very firmly stuck in its original place.. a place where it shldn't belong...


jus came bac after a gathering with wendy zhiwei n meng.. they are my best best buddy.. in a world whr nobody understand mi... but they do...


came across this blog frm chloe's blog..
http://xiaodoudou.blogspot.com


Its about a 25 yr old gal whu have cancer.. n her journey thru the chemo treatment... but sad to say... she lost the battle after merely 8 months.. sigh.. from a person who is strong n upbeat to a person who is weak n frail... it jus break my heart...


Im worried for my dad... tho his case dun seem to be that serious... but stories of these sort start to freak me out recently... instead of a help which i shld be... im actually a burden to em.. im feeling disgusted at myself... im jus plain useless n a no brainer.. im paying for my wrong for the pass year... n these debts are jus too much to handle...


im sleeping now.. wif a very heavy heart... gd nitez all..::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 3:02 AM:.
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::haiZzz.. shld haf changed this blogskin long ago...


but i jus cant bear to change it.. putted in alot of effort.. n the hardest things is to align the fotos within the box...


y do it need to change it..


im confused...::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 6:49 PM:.
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::im sori if i din convey the msg well enff to let you understand me...


mayb i din realli put myself into ur shoes....


its sad to be viewed this way... but if u insist.. i will accept it...


will be good to have u around... but mayb its not mutual now...


no matter wat.. take care of ur health....


hope to c you around...::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 6:33 PM:.
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::It was a darn boring weekend...


was on com for the whole bloody friday... n can u imagine.... at the same time i finish one whole drama series...


GeEz... sat was sum wat similar... i was on the com for the freaking afternoon completing my oredi completed game.. till 8plus and its PM mind you.. n i went dwn to robertson walk to mit cat for a soccer match... Portugal vs Iran.. its a borin match actually..


fail to psycho meow meow to mambo with me... so i went in dbl o alone.. back den i was still bragging to my friends...


"u knoe actually i go clubbing.. no need to jio pple one... cos once i go zouk or dbl o i cfm c my friends de"


oUcH~~ wat a slap on my face.. im alone now... the so call regulars at dbl o is no longer there regularly... but since there is so much on my mind currently n i need a break.. i went ahead anyway... no friends but still got music wat.. (but not to forget..dbl o's mambo sucks at times... actualli most of the time... lol)


but to my pleasent surprise... right after i enter... i saw kevin... my bmt friend... den as we walk to the danceflr... i saw bobby... my sispec friend... den at the bar... i saw sebby... my zouk friend... den at the podium... i saw... umm i dunno his name but its a dbl o ex-regular... den in the middle of mambo... i saw RACHAL~~~ my best friend (frm my clique)...


so so so... to conclude... hEy~~~... i din really lose my touch as a cheongster yet~~


nothing to be proud of actuli... lol...


i miss wendy... lol... she is at overseas... taiwan...


besides this season of breaking up... i guess its a season of travel too..


rachal jus went thailand last week....


wendy is at taiwan this week....


zhiwei will be going thailand nxt week...


hUmp~~ wats so great~~ daniel will be going overseas too!


pulau ubin the week after nxt!


for a recce =~(


God God... if u are listening... pls pls pls answer my prayer... your son is dying soon... very soon...



PS: This years world cup suckzz... or issit bcos i din bet... hmm... every match seem to be boring... dun seem to worth the effort of staying up the whoel nite watching em... for once the bug din bite me...::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 5:10 AM:.
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::Im exhausted...


for many many reasons i am....


trapped in situations...


extreme situation calls for extreme measures...


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i miss milo... or mao mao...


it is sooo cute....


i miss her.. very much...


be it attachment or love


as long as there is a feeling.. im contented::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 10:22 AM:.
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