::tIs posT is jus fOr sUm1.. sUmone tHat i cAre for.. love.. cRy.. sMiLe.. pLaY.. tEasE..

tHankz.. thankz for the 2yrs 7mth and 9days of attention.. care.. concern.. u haf given me.. tho there are good n the bad times.. it has leave a deep impression.. all the memories will be kept in my puny little brain till the day i leave this world.. im speechless... i jus hope that u can haf a beta life ahead of u.. do sum planing.. wat u wanna do.. i might not agree.. BUT i will support.. keep mi updated.. lets keep in contact.. i thank God for ur company in part of my life journey.. having u around is a joy.. still is.. and will be... wE r sTill friEnds aRe we? mUaCkz!

the day we part was sad n dark
u've done ur part its jus my luck
to go or stay its hard to say
time will tell the truth sum day

the time we spent was great wif joy
the idea to split was hard to toy
for a beta future i hope is true
we chose this way lets not remain blue

a friend i gain i hope to be
to lose u all i can't agree
"Love the real you" she said back den
nw we're still friends and the care remains::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 2:23 AM:.
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::well well.. jus in case u all wonder.. i haven get ani punishment for my mC saga yet.. dunno if im getting ani.. aniway.. since things oredi turn out this way.. i dun realli care.. having punishment means these things will end it once it for all.. if not.. hmm.. i'll jus wait for the day for the timebomb to explode den..

these few days my friends.. esp campmates commented that im getting abit crazy.. hidin.. uhm.. sumwhere.. cant say it here.. u noe jus in case sum pple whom i dun wanna c starts reading my blog.. uhm.. aniway the story goes.. these few days i haf been hiding *sumwhere* to jus avoid my staff.. u noe the camp is like not so big so finally one day he caught up with mi.. all thanks to dAvE.. so he started his.. "concern" again.. ask mi y am i sad.. want mi to tell him my problems.. same as before.. he will: "Uhmm... uhmmMm.. actualli its ur fault" like wat i say.. im not denying that im wrong.. but pls.. cant u c my face... cant u c that if u dun trust mi.. jus shut the hell up and stop pestering mi.. fArK oFf~~ leave mi alone.. dun try to act as if u realli care..

aniway.. im posting out soon... i hope... away frm all these.. eee.. pple..

playin mahjong jus nw.. keke.. not bad.. manage to win 5 tai~~ zi mo sumore.. quite an achievement.. yeh.. but sigh.. going bac to camp like in 2 hrs time.. duty.. yes the 3 extras that i got.. *yAwN* hope that the worse is over yah.. yup.. worse.. but not the bad things.. generally.. camp is still a bad plc for mi now.. little things still comes up.. but.. compared to the onces i haf gone thru... its like.. hmm.. alrite lah.. so no complains..::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 5:29 AM:.
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::tOk 2 1 of MSG.. realli couldnt take wat was in the camp oredi.. do agree that thru out the string of events i was partly at fault.. yup.. blame it on the bad luck... blame it on the pple.. blame it on the system.. well.. i rather blame myself.. for not ensuring.. for not double checking.. for no knowing sumbody was jus waiting for a chance to pounce on mi.. learnt a vauable lesson this time round.. think i got smarter in a way.. so when similar things happen in the end.. i'll know how to handle..

for the past mth.. circumstances were not in my favour.. be it the disk.. the MC.. the reports.. judgin from situation.. i haf to admit that if i were a bystander.. i wun believe it myself too.. sad.. but true.. but u c.. alot of times.. alot of pple are lazy commanders.. with close mind.. they jus conclude how another person is like.. case close.. but on the other hand... thats y they are paid so much itsnt it.. to understand ur subordinates.. access if they reali do their work.. den make a conclusion with an objective mindset.. lazy commanders jus jump into conclusion.. they dun check.. n jus sterotype..

anyhow.. thats the real world.. cant do much.. jus haf to accept... tok 2 my OC.. he say he will help mi with my application 2 post out.. let mi express my next company of interest.. he is a good boss.. he listens..

hoping for a new start.. a new beginning.. i will prove my worth..::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 6:19 PM:.
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::i stopped and looked around.. how many of my friends is realli happi at this pt of time.. not many.. zEn.. cAt.. myself.. sumtimes mEnG.. pls pple who's names cant be mentioned.. even those friend who doesnt haf ani immediate prob an't looking very happi either.. y..

thot about a couple of reasons..

LeTs c:

1) weather! u know the wEaTheR nw is kinda hot.. yes very hot.. when one gets hot.. plus nw the durian seasons.. its hot plus hot.. so it makes ur temper hot.. so when ur temper is hot.. it make other pple hot 2.. so when every1 is hot.. hm.. u do the wrong things.. =P

2) pErioD~ applicable 2 gals onli.. but wat the heck!! at times guys get it too.. dun tink that its jus a once a mth thing 4 gals.. 4 sum gals its a daily thing.. beware!::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 6:22 PM:.
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::got 3 extra.. have an option to left the dept.. or well put it in a blant manner get boot out..

things was so nice the night bfore... nw im gona like lose it all.. i got choices.. which route to take.. unappealing choices.. which one to take.. big gamble.. that affects my life..

thinking.. thots.. i hate to choose.. a sad.. 2 sad.. 3 sad.. all sad.. gimme time.. i need to think.. which route is beta.. both seems like a gamble..::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 9:52 PM:.
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::im sick.. yes reali sick 2day.. my eye was bleeding on fri.. on sat.. den on sun 2.. now is not realli the time to take MC.. so many things jus happen in the camp.. but the bleeding sort of shocked mi.. so WTF.. jus go n c wat the doc has to say... luckly it wasnt anithing serious.. its jus a "ba JiAm" doc say that i'll be fine after he squeeze the zit out.. kaozz.. it was painful lo.. but in the end i was given a 2 days mc.. fine.. he paid back the pain by giving me e mc..

when out to seletar with meng n zhiwei yest.. dunno since when.. we haf become like best buddies! which is good.. its quite hard.. seriously quite hard to find a good friend.. friends that u can confine to.. telling em every and anything.. i have to say im lucky.. very very lucky.. thoughout my life.. diff stages.. there is alot of veri veri good friends i can tok to..

sO for all the HarD work that my FrIeNdS had put into making my life a memorable 1, i have decided to come up with fRieNds aWard 2005!* There is a total of 8 awards this year and they include.. Best chionging friend.. Best reaction when u c me cry.. Best crying look... Best timing in replyin urgent msg... Best KTV kakhi.. Best bOwling kakhi.. Best late nite Kakhi.. Best best friend award..

The first award of the nite is the Best Chionging Friend Award. The lastest addition of addiction to my life.. chionging a.k.a clubbing has become part of my sat program.. the nominiees of the Best Chionging Friend Award are as follows:

1) HaZeL Lim - tHe dRuNk UnTil CaNnoT sTaNd gAl
2) Zen - thE mAke Me DrInK uNtIl cAnNoT sTaNd gUy
3) CaT- tHe DrInk aLoT sTilL cAn stand gaL
4) EueGne - tHe gOt Drink, nVr dink also onli sTanD tHeRe gUy

aNd the award goes to *dRuMrOlL*.... cAt~~~ the drink alot still can stand gal!! Cat has a history of clubbing at zouk for more den a year... her smiles nvr fails to attract pple.. well be it the rite or the wrong one.. hyper active.. esp when summer rain comes.. njoyed ur company fully.. thankz~~


The second award is Best reaction when u c me cry Award... can say i dun usually cry.. but sumtimes u breakdown u breakdown.. so gOoD fRiends are always there to cheEr u up.. Lets take a LooK aT the nOrminiees:

1) ZhImInG - aT the MaCdOnLd's 2003:when smoke gets into my eyes
2) Yanjie - aT the MaCdOnLd's 2003:when smoke gets into my eyes
3) JuNhAo - iN the COS rM
4) aLLaN - iN tHe COS rm

the wInnEr is~~~ zHimInG!!! i haf to say.. zhiming haf seen me thru.. since im a kid till nw.. muz haf seen mi crying like dunno how many times.. but when im with him.. i know.. i can jus be myself.. ThAnKz..

The Third awArd is the Best crying look awArd.. this award given in appreaciation of friends that cried in front of me before.. like wat they say.. its good to let your feelings flow in front of ur good friend.. but take note.. im not the reason that they cry...

1) YaNjIe - sO uGlY i CoUlDnT eVeN reg ItS u
2) QiXiAn - sHoCkeD anD sUdDeN
3) wEnDy - StArBuCkz OuTiNg
4) CaT - wHiLe I wAs DrIvInG

tHe aWaRd gOeS to... yAnJiE~~.. tat was a long cry.. and damn u look so diff lo.. with the whole face screwed up.. hmm.. zhiming should take a look...

The fourth award.. Best timing in replyin urgent msg.. when is your best friend when u need em... sometimes you felt that you are alone there n then you need help.. who is the first to response? lets take alook at the nominiees:

1) Ah BooN - within a min cfm reply.. always.. if she dun she muz be in trouble..
2) CaT - in 3 min reply.. excluding fri.. sat.. mahjong day..pple on unimpt list
3) wEnDy - unknown reply time.. but towards urgent msg u can count on her
4) zhiwei - msg reply unknown.. but call u cfm can get him..

and Our winNer is aH bOoN~~~ pple call the the msg writer.. many times her rate of msg is jus like u are toking to pple on the msn.. its that fast.. so if u dun get her reply fast.. worry for her..

The Fifth award Is~~ Best KTV kakhi aWard.. the next ting besides bowling and clubbing is KTV.. had quite alot of fun there.. but e main thing is still company.. so lets take a look at the nominiees:

1) wEnDy - best dUeT eVer
2) hAzEL - ru HuA n Da gEr
3) zhiWeI - ru HuA n Da GeR
4) yAnJie - iTs jUs OnCe

tHe wInNer is~~ wEnDy!! the result came expected.. my best ktv buddy.. esp when it comes to duet.. zhi zhao lang man.. its been sum time.. mayb we should start goin again...

The sixth award is ~~ Best bOwling kakhi award.. the next love of my life.. bowlin... started since sec skool... these are the pple whom i frequently bowl with be it in the past or present.. lets hope in the future too..

1) cLaIrE - average of 170++ dun pray pray
2) xianwei - were crazy bout bowling in sec skool..
3) xiaowan - been a long time since we bowled
4) zhiMinG - first time bowling during pri skool.. 2 kids n a ball..

The aWaRd goes to... ZhImIng~~.. been a long time since i bowl with u.. lts get together again 4 a game...

The 7th award...Best late nite Kakhi.. hangin out late for supper.. movies... clubbing... has become a lifestyle for many.. but there is still alot of ple who haf curfew.. these are the few friends that can come out till late.. or early in the morning.. hmm...

1) cAt - can slp early can slp late..guess its jus if she feel like miting u or not
2) cLaiRe - basically she is a night creature that slps in the morning..
3) zhiwei - can stay out late for friend.. jus for friends..
4) aH BoOn - she can stay out late...

the winner Is... cLaire~~ she is one of the few that i knew slp till 7 in the evening.. amazing.. she is good..

The 8th aWard iS.. The Best besT friend award.. actuali all the nominiees is my best friends.. not onli the ones that got the prize.. but in a competition there must be a winner so the nominiess are..

1)wEnDy - poLy fUn~
2)zHimInG - from YouNg till Nw
3)aH bOoN - thE darKesT seCrEcT
4)zHiWeI - sUndaY nIte At sElEtAr

AnD thE aWard goEs to~~~ wEnDy!! polY fUn.. nVr regRetted going SP.. its reali a fun plc with nice pple like me.. uhm.. um.. wendY.. haha~~



@aLl rIgHts ReSeRvEd@ * tHis cOmpetitioN is StrIctLy reStRIcted tO fRieNds OnLi. FaMiLy mEmBeRs n GiRlFrIeNd nEed nOt gEt JeaLoUs.::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 3:22 PM:.
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::phew.. after so long of hard work.. i manage to complete my report.. project.. or watever u call that.. went for the vetting for the project yest... my PC was the first to look at the project.. den he threw mi a "wat a fark up project" kinda look.. depress.. i used 2 FrEaKiNg weeks to do lo.. and weekends included.. wat more do u wan.. den my 2IC took a look.. n he said its not bad.. was kinda happy.. finally.. no late nites! no going back to camp on wkends..

Den i was surprise that my boss gaf mi a haf day off!!! seems like ages... my last off was.. cant rem... shall not waste so much time on blogging ler.. keke.. i shall go slp nw..::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 2:17 PM:.
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