::hOt is the oNLi feeling i had today... was raised from my beauty slp at 0930 am.. and for your infor.. i reached hm at 0700 am in the morning after a kTv session to celebrate yanjie bdae... the 2 and half hrs of slp din do me ani good.. on the contary.. it contributed to a very bad start of the day.. the lack of slp made me veri grumpy... a slpy man is an angry man...


the day started with sum disagreement wif my father... followed by a long and hot trip to my grandma hse... the temp im sure is at least a 35 degrees... was sweating as if the heaven is trying to remind me that im born in the yr of the PiGz... reached my grandma hse at ard noon... was dead tired.. the sweatin hasnt stop... took a nap.. wif 3 fans blowing at me... but it onli manage to produce hot wind.. that made me even more uncomfy... finally i gif up trying to slp.. dragged my slpy head bac into the living rm... down 3 packz of ice cool soya bean drink in a row in bid to extingiush that burning feeling...


finally the sUn begin to rEtire.. as the nite fall.. the heat of the sun is soon substituted wif the heat from the steamboat... din eat much.. was feeling jus too sick frm all the excessive warmth in the afternoon...


depite all those negative feelings i had for the whole day.. little chatz wif her did perk me up abit.. but well.. no nobody is really that free on chinese new year.. so i decided to gif her a break... started take pic of the firework.. and i tell you.. the firework here is jus so so nice... it literally lit up the whole sky wif purple green and blue! manage to snap a few shots of these magnificent moments... well post it up soon enff i guess...


gona be back hm tml... yeah!! miss my dear.. my cosy bed.. my com... my fast internet connection.. my car.. my mobility...


yAwNz... gD nItez eVeRyOne... haF a bLesSed yR aHead!!::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 12:44 AM:.
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::so you see... im blogging now at 2pm.. waitin for Miss cat to mit me up... the logic is that u cant let mw wait or i will spend... and i did jus that... sign up for E2Max member.. cost me 12 bucKs... hump*... aniway the card will do me good... get to haf point at all cathay outlets... bowling... movies... eTc..
i Haf to say.. the pLacE is sO... soOoo... Sooo cOoLL... its a plc for gaming... for movies... n alot nore other things!!


decided to gaming for awhile... but i haf to say... kids nowadays... are jus so horrible.... so do they study Diploma in Biz... iT... or they are sTuDying Diploma in cOunTeR sTrIkE... im jUs a frEe fRaG waithing for my time to dIe... quit the game aft 2 rounds.. at least i wun die blogging... arh... lame...


anyway... MisS cAt is here.. looking.. haha... so formal... so OuT oF pLaCe in tHis cOoL gamInG cenTre... oPps.. kana spotted.. think i will jus stop here... im hungry ler...


cya 2nite special sumone... mUaCkz~~::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 1:41 PM:.
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::sIttIng in front of my computer... tinking of wat to blog.. i'M tired~~ physically tired.. my eyes start to feel as if they weight over a hundred pounds.. tHis bLog eNtry is fOr yOU~~


"i LovE reAdIng yOuR bLog" she saiD.. or issIt bLogs in general? i prefer the former.. haha~~


hUndreds of thots raced thrU my mind.. "cant process!!" my brain protested.. guess i jus haf to take it easy.. in fact i am.. i see things in a different light now.. slowly im letting hold of my grip.. still determined as ever to make a difference.. firmly believe that there is a chance.. yet im going to tk a softer stance.. no pressure... jus enjoy watever time there is.. during this time.. i'll make you the special gal in my life.. as long as it can last...


gif me your hand.. lets walk down the cozy beaches of karbi... visit the bustling night market of taiwan... enjoy the cool climate of europe... dreamz.. hopes.. wanted you to take part in all this dreamz of mine.. u r my 100% nothing less..


nOtHiNg LeSs..::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 9:44 PM:.
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::"I dOn't kNow" "i CaNt dEcIdE" tHe worst aNsWeR in the whole wide world... its worse than a direct "no"... leAVe you hanging in the air... cant plan ahead.. basically an answer without hope..


wait... im tired... not trying hard enff.. jus not trying hard enff... yet i jus cant say anithing... sick... sILeNce is wAt yOu dO beST wHeN i expEct aN aNsWeR. Period.::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 2:29 PM:.
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::aRgH... latE nIte~~ jUs loOk at thE tiMe... shld be in slumberland ... yupzz.. cant get to slp again... actually i hated to jus blog liddat.. sick of comming up with sad blogs... bUt whU caN filL me iN aT this wEiRd tImIng... bLogginG is the onli channel i could express myself i gUeSS... i was actualli formulating a cheerful blog.. was going to share how my life change from a bad last year to a betta thIs yeaR.. now i haf my doubts..


wiDe awake now.. at 430 am in the morning.. geez... was veri veri affected by alot of things suddenly.. within the time frame of 30mins...


1) a sms at 1.08am
2) a tag msg *(refer to the bottom)
3) a blog entry
4) a friendster page


tink im becoming abit like hazel... SSSssssSSSOOoooOOoo jus fark off bitch!! i will write wat i wan.. wats on the blog only reflects a fraction of wats happening.. so who r u to advice me on wat to do... if u are really a friend jus come n tell me personally on wat to do.... if not... jus disappear...


not in a gd mood... definately not... im quite lost... tired... dry... out of ideas... jus as good as dead.. dunno if i can still bet on winning... i cant keep a clear mind ler... everyone is trying very hard.. but..


suddenly it struck me... there is actually alot in me thats lacking.. sad.. alot of things that i jus cant match up to the previous benchmark... looks.. size.. wealth.. mayb thats the reasons for the periodic fallback? aRgGgHh... its taking a toll on me... wat if i fail to exist.. is that better?? geezz... lost in emotions again...


im not looking back at the past... but there is a difference... but i wanna be as good as the past... i can put down wats in the past.. and build on a betta future.. but i guess not many pple can do the same...


its 0635 now... gota go work ler.. gonna be a tired day ahead.. wat a way to start a day... i hate his appearence... it jus screws up everyone's life... esp mine... *i* and r** in *e*L bast***!!!!


*fark off bitch!! to break up or not is up to me.. even if u meant well jus put dwn your name arshole.. if i wun even know who the fark u are when u put down your name.. den i dun even think you haf the capacity to advice me on wat to do... so jus keep ur bloody filthy maggot infested mouth close and to yourself!::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 6:02 AM:.
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::im sTayIng home today... dEaRie wanna stay home to stuDy... everybody esle in this world seem to be bz.. to bz to even reply a sms.. sigh... wat a lonely day... hope sumone can jus ask me out..


today marks the first month anniversary.. if we are lookin on the long run... this first month is totally insignificant.. but to me is a month of effort... joy and laughter... a month of good company.. full of ups n down i say and i rekcon that im doing good enff... much more can be done..


i will jus stay at home to do sum self reflection... been doing alot of reflection recently... it does do me sum good i haf to say... cleared my mind off alot of things..



hope this one month has brought you joy and happiness dear.. haPpi oNe moNtH~~ mUaCkZ::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 11:56 AM:.
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::hmm... jus got home.. had a tok wif sumone... so am i a person that likes to force my thots on other pple or wat im saying are jus facts.. at the end of the day i jus find that compromise is the key to a long relationship...


isnt it the case? if one party offers a an ultimatium.. wouldn't it spell the end? or he/she is still jUs hopIng that the other party can love em enff to gif in? at the end of the day... i jus believe that if there is sumthing that is non negotiable in a relationship that jus spells e end ba..


my thot is broken... shark.. too tired i guess.. unable to get it bac.. aniway... its jus up to em... gd NiTez...::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 1:12 AM:.
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::jUs woke up frm the middle of the sleep... bad dreamz?? over-sensitive?? six sense?? but after i woke up... i jus couldnt get back to lala land... seem to have alot of worries... but not realli... guess im jus abit worried about losing the things i haf now... that include people in my life... things doesnt come easy this year... and i realli reali treasure wat i haf now.. losing anything will jus make me go crazy...


how i wish time stop at my poly years... life is good... no... i shld say perfect... there and then i was telling wendy.. every aspect of my life is jus perfect.. no problems at all... geezz.. i have to jus wake up.. those days are gone... i will build my life frm now towards that perfect life i once had..


hope this uneasy feeling will go away soon... gota slp... gota work tml... muackz::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 12:46 AM:.
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::so jUs wHeN you thot me and gary was stupid trying to peep a gal thats in the FHM.. take a look at this...


when guys start undergoing puberty..curiosity kills the cat.. or in this case.. the boy...::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 10:51 PM:.
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::Happi 2006~~~ a nEw yEaR!! NeW hOpE!! Lets HoPe tHaT iTs a BeTa yEaR foR eVeRyOnE!!! tHis Year got off with quite a good start i mus say... gota spend it wif sumone i love... hee..


invited my friends over for a small gathering... "ta bao" dinner... n watched "shutter".. followed by countdown and a few shouts of "yeah happi 2006"... of cos the atmosphere is not as high as wat it is outside at places like MOS.. but i rather stay at home... den to queue from 8 to 1am and not get in at the end.. guess im getting abit old ba.. prefer to jus chill n relac one corner with my dear beside me.. that can make me a very happi man oredi...


played bridge e whole night.. but wat made it so interesting i guess was the involovement of our newbie... Qiang n Marcus... the way they express themselves and their "logic" in playin the game brought me down with laughter... at a point i jus haf to throw my cards to duanjie to continue cos i couldnt stop laughing...


btw.. one thing to announce~~ i got bac my LeMoN ler!!! haha~~

ta da! mY LeMoN bAc iN stYle... aS goOd aS nEw~~~


aNd yOu caN guess wHo iS the FiRsT pAsSenger~~


jUs LoVe tO c HeR aRd~~::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 1:31 PM:.
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