::Im bored~~ yup...


mayb not bored...


Im sian~~ yup...


But not realli sian~~ cos Im actualli quite busy at work...


Im feeling empty.. emotionally empty..


unbearable....


Very...


Affects the way i tok... the way i eat.. the way i sleep... basically everything..


so i blog.. trying to keep myself busy... for this one moment... jus to escape from the clutches of this emptiness knowing that it will come back and hunt me sooner or later..


soo... long long long time... before blogging... or every internet is around... i used to haf this little diary.. jus took it out recently... after.. ummm... like 10 years... and found out there is only 7 entries.... only one entry per year.. lol...


each entry narrates a sad part of me.. in retrospect... they sounded quite stupid.. haha.. hopefully when i look back at my life in due time... i will feel stupid too... in fact im oredi feeling abit stupid... wahaha~~


been trying to escape from this emptiness... this loneliness... this... this... void... but it seem to be a bottomless pit...


tried to fill it with work... nAh~~ it only makes it worse..


tried to fill it with friends... does help.. but they cant be there 24/7 rite...


tried to fill it with uHmMm... nAh.. its not working...


so you see.. im engulf by this huge monster call empty monster and i have no where to hide!!


ArRrrRRgggGGggHHHH~~~ get away... get away~~~


OnE fInE day iM jus gona be a zombie... walking around.. without a soul~~


PS: btw when thru Qx blog jus now.. saw a close up of a necklace.. so... i was thinking... uhmm.. pls tell me that the person in the foto is not you.. can you.. cos the blossom seem to full on you.. hmm.. sori jus being evil... btw.. this reminds me.. fotoshop can actualli do lotsa wonder~~ lalalala~~::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 10:20 PM:.
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