::aRgH... latE nIte~~ jUs loOk at thE tiMe... shld be in slumberland ... yupzz.. cant get to slp again... actually i hated to jus blog liddat.. sick of comming up with sad blogs... bUt whU caN filL me iN aT this wEiRd tImIng... bLogginG is the onli channel i could express myself i gUeSS... i was actualli formulating a cheerful blog.. was going to share how my life change from a bad last year to a betta thIs yeaR.. now i haf my doubts..


wiDe awake now.. at 430 am in the morning.. geez... was veri veri affected by alot of things suddenly.. within the time frame of 30mins...


1) a sms at 1.08am
2) a tag msg *(refer to the bottom)
3) a blog entry
4) a friendster page


tink im becoming abit like hazel... SSSssssSSSOOoooOOoo jus fark off bitch!! i will write wat i wan.. wats on the blog only reflects a fraction of wats happening.. so who r u to advice me on wat to do... if u are really a friend jus come n tell me personally on wat to do.... if not... jus disappear...


not in a gd mood... definately not... im quite lost... tired... dry... out of ideas... jus as good as dead.. dunno if i can still bet on winning... i cant keep a clear mind ler... everyone is trying very hard.. but..


suddenly it struck me... there is actually alot in me thats lacking.. sad.. alot of things that i jus cant match up to the previous benchmark... looks.. size.. wealth.. mayb thats the reasons for the periodic fallback? aRgGgHh... its taking a toll on me... wat if i fail to exist.. is that better?? geezz... lost in emotions again...


im not looking back at the past... but there is a difference... but i wanna be as good as the past... i can put down wats in the past.. and build on a betta future.. but i guess not many pple can do the same...


its 0635 now... gota go work ler.. gonna be a tired day ahead.. wat a way to start a day... i hate his appearence... it jus screws up everyone's life... esp mine... *i* and r** in *e*L bast***!!!!


*fark off bitch!! to break up or not is up to me.. even if u meant well jus put dwn your name arshole.. if i wun even know who the fark u are when u put down your name.. den i dun even think you haf the capacity to advice me on wat to do... so jus keep ur bloody filthy maggot infested mouth close and to yourself!::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 6:02 AM:.
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