::life is a gamble... its not that i nvr bet on anything before... in fact everyone is "betting" everyday.. they "bet" on taking bus in a certain situation is faster... they "bet" on a certain way of study yeild a higher score.. they "bet" on takin which route is safer at night..


The fact that i use the word "bet" is exactly becos.. nothing is this world is certain.. not even sunrise.. quoted from some pple... our sun is gona burn out in like how many million years.. of cos it does affect us thus nobody realli care... sunrise is still an everyday affair.. however there is still sum uncertainty isnt it..


to minise the impact of losing any "bet".. pple will choose the option with the lowest risk... for example.. having to know that there is a massive jam in CTE.. most prob pple will get a train down to town rather than taxi.. logical isnt it... we were brought up this way.. so for the simpliest thing we will follow the low risk "bet".. and most pple jus made these decision w/o even thinking much about it cos the answer to which to choose is jus so obvious...


however at times... i jus felt stupid... illogical... crazy... dumb... cos as i grew up... esp in this one year... i go for "bets" which is of high risk... high return... but yet high emotional cost.. to a point that i start to wonder if i can really handle the loses if i din win the "bet" ... been on a losing streak since the start.. isnt looking promising... but the "bet" jus get bigger... hated the feeling....


pple have been trying to pull me back... stick to that low risk "bet" they say.... but i thot... at times im winning... y gif up? my heart jus refuse to let go... sucKz... when the heart and mind starts to differ in decisions.. it jus means that i will suffer no matter the outcome...


f**k... wat a life i haf... jus kill me... ::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 1:00 AM:.
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