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well well.. not been blogging for a long time.. its not that things haf not been happening.. in fact.. so many things happened.. till e pt i realli couldnt catch up with it.. realli.. this year is extremely SHITTY!!!!! to think that at the start of the year i was still happily counting down.. *&^%%^#^#$%%^#$%
shit u 2005!!! end soon and get out of my life!!!
my blog.. started for this reason.. tho named as sweet memories of dan.. it recorded everything other den sweet things.. it will forever remind me of this rough patch of my life.. the faithful year when i lost my everything... my every pride.. my gf.. my career.. my car.. my health..
my previous post was still talking abt my departure for langkawi... the trip was a refreshing one.. realli.. when i was back i thot that i can jus get on my feet.. live my life anew.. try to rebuild the things i've lost.. was gona blog abt the trip.. post up sum foto..
fated.. shld i realli use the word fate? before i can even upload anything.. even blog.. i met with a car accident.. a serious one.. left me a passenger with a bruised head, broken toe and hospitalise for 5 days.. for me.. i got myself a fractured hand.. a badly briused tummy ( and i realli mean bad!!).. extremely very painful chest.. and hospitalise for a good 4 days.. of e 2 days i was set on drip wo food...
jus as i was gona pick myself up.. i will meet with things that bring me down again.. 3rd time now..
Lately a good friend told me i haf changed.. obviously its not for the betta.. i agree with her.. realli.. im a changed person.. issit becos of the environment? my company? or its jus this cruel world?
growing up is hard.. resist the world.. resist the change.. and u'll find that trouble jus keep knocking on the door.. follow the flow.. go with the rest.. and u'll find that u r jus living a life that u dun desire..
i dun wanna follow the world.. i wan my life back.. going against it is so so hard.. im tired.. realli...
there is a glittle shining in the far sky.. can i get to the light? im hopeful. at least its the onli light in my whole dark sky.. i love this star..
advice for those who is also hit by "a series of unfortunate event" (hey! my life can be made into a movie too!)
*hardship in life does not bring u down, instead it will make u a stronger person* |
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(tats bullshit!! it does bring u down and seriously im not up yet.. both physically and emotionally.. and the talk about making u stronger.. yah rite.. do u tink that my right hand will still be as good after the fracture? these quote are onli applicable if it doesnt apply to urself...)::
.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 11:13 PM:.
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