::this shall be one of the few times im blogging le.. gona start my life in a new place.. nice pple... bad working hours.. i will need to stay in camp from mon to fri.. back to training days... having no emotional support is bad.. but... sigh..

wanted to jus leave and free my mind.. back in the past... i used to live happily even when im single.. but now... i cant live a sec jus being alone.. lonliness strikes me like lighting.. the feeling undescrible.. with no words can express that kind of fear i have..

yet i wallow in self denial that things might kinda get beta.. stupid me.. thats wat i told my new friend too.. but easier said den done..

i realli hate it... yes hate it.. when pple blog about happy things that happen... good things that happen.. and i can onli... always... everytime... blog about my sad miserable lonely life... the feeling sux.. the feeling sux because.. pple get bored reading it.. i get bored writing it.. but at the end of the day blogging is one of my limited ways of venting my emotions....

im going crazy... i dun even understand myself ler.. doing things which i shldnt.. thinking abt things which i nvr thot b4.. ArGGrgHhhHHhh!!!!!!!!!

cant believe it! im being brought down by #%$#$@%$@ dAmN!::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 6:50 PM:.
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