::oh.. its sickening... im now at sickbay.. cos of my bloody eyes... thot i could get a day of mc or 2.. but suckzz.. in e end i was sentence to sickbay till i get beta.. know i cant complain.. but geez.. i took a bloody 20 mins to load this bloody page... can u feel my anger towards this 56k speed!!

woke up feeling depress.. still cant get over certain things... but i can slowly feel that im getting more n more determine to walk out of it... but im jus scared that i might jus jump frm one hole to another.. hoping that it will be a smaller hole... hmm..

got abit disappointed when sumone said to me today.. that its good to have a non commintment kind of relationship.. no worries... njoy the company.. good times.. good memories..

okay lah... i do agree nowadays its kinda "trendy". but not alot of pple can take it i guess... but in a way if u are the kind that can take it... it makes u a player isnt it.. jus haf fun.. its perfect if both party can jus b as xiao sha.. but in reality how many "couples" can do that? sumone will get hurt.. n the more xiao sha one is the player am i rite..

as i grow older... i start to c more n more of these example.. its realli kinda sad...

the day in the sickbay set mi thinking.. yess.. again... picking myself up again.. but wondering if i shld place myself on the betting table again... but i guess.. this time round.. its surely a beta bet... risk of losing is equally high... but hope the risk decreases down the road...

but one thing for sure.. the past has past and im moving on.. guess its affecting jus too much of my life and im sick of it..

guess im gona jus miss tml's mambo.. this bloody eye of mine.. sigh..

jus to update.. im going langkawi nxt week!! gona take it as a rest.. and be recharged... hopfully u will get to c a new Dan!!::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 10:10 PM:.
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