::decided to blog be for i start to make my way back camp.. sumtimes i wonder y i keep blogging... its a way to keep my sanity i guess.. pple were saying its good being a single.. grass is always greener on the other side i guess.. being single you can have alot of fun.. but seriously to me... issit wat i wan... you jus cant have the best of those world rite... fun.. all those fun.. are short lived.. one night and its gone.. week in week out you will have to find watever fun that is to fill up your actual lonely heart.. kinda meaningless if u ask me.. i prefer i stable relationship... seriously.. i was asked... wats stable.. my answer will be stable is the kinda feeling that you know that u haf sumone to fall back to whenever.. wherever u need.. a person who will share your joy.. saddness.. problems... by jus having that right person in your life can actually set alot of things rite for you i guess...

im oredi late for my book in timing.. n im still blogging.. i dunno.. jus feel very unwilling to do things i dun want nw...im sick.. reali... those whom im told em about will know wat im toking abt.. but its tired to act like im normal in front of the rest whom dunno... many still think that im as carefree as before.. think that im alrite.. well.. false front... its all a false front..

at times i really duno how i shld continue my days.. realli... rite now im onli lookin for that FUN.. yup.. that kinda fun thats high but short lived.. in a way it leave you high and dry... yearning for more.. but the truth is this kinda fun dun last.. geez.. YET the stupid me is still trying to hold on to things which i know will end sumday.. sIgH... hey pls wake up Leh... wake uP... pLs.. pLs...

i wanted to.. buT wILL i gEt tO knOw tHaT pErSoN tHaT caN mAke Me wAkE uP
wHeRe r U.. i mIsS u sO mUcH::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 10:12 PM:.
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