::todae was a peaceful day..not good but peaceful.. having gone thru so much.. with at least a major scolding a day.. 2day is a day where i get to haf sum peace n quiet.. never knew that a veri normal day like this haf such a calming effect.. its been a long long time.. i almost forget hw a normal day is like..

sum pple say diary is a collection of ur memories.. experiences.. yes.. but to me its also a history textbook.. a book that 1 can learn frm past mistake so to lead a betta life in the future.. this whole month has certainly bring me down.. but not under.. hope i will raise up to become stronger.. always thot that my experience in sec skool plus my EQ is enff to bring mi across to where i want.. not true.. the book of experiences jus keeps growing thicker.. God has made mi realise.. life is a learning experience till the last heartbeat.. tho it seem like the world seem to know that.. but i guess pple get complacent over time.. n i happen to be one of em.. this period made me realise.. there is alot of things i cant predict.. cant forsee.. cant control..

nope.. life is not getting ani betta.. in fact it might turn for the worse anytime.. im getting myself prepared.. trying not to let myself sink so deep dwn again.. but im not confident.. i will try..

suddenly a mambo song jus pops up to my head... "guilty *bAnG* of love.. guilty *baNg* of love in.. guilty.. guilty.. guilty of love in the first degree.." so sori.. sHhHh..::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 8:50 PM:.
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