::the past few days were like HELL for me.. it took my mental state to a place i nvr been before.. i was totally down.. yes hit hard rite into the face.. left mi bleedin.. in shock and awe.. that i dun even bother to wipe that trails of blood off my face.. i sat bac... hopin my time on this once lovely planet would end rite nw.. NOW.. close friends knew wat i was toking about.. they felt the full impact of my emotions..

but now im recovering.. but it still hurts.. very much... holding to live on.. is jus a favour to those who care for me.. im goin on.. looking normal..jus for you all.. yes its you all.. crash my father's car.. getting c*****D in camp.. was like.. lost for words.. there's a person who stood beside me.. you know who u r.. i thanked you.. pulled mi frm that "cliff".. given mi your time.. comfort.. attention.. and all that i need to pull thru this worse phrase of my life.. i might not be able to recipocate wat u have given to me.. forgive me..

LoSt.. lost for word.. next action i shld take.. to steer my life bac.. i jus seem to sail further into the world of hostile and unknown world.. wat step should i take.. choose? spoke with wendy n zhiwei jus now.. cant reach a conclusion.. every1 would b hurt .. its jus sooner or later.. sigh.. dun wanna think about it.. go with the flow.. but the flow seems to go for the worse.. im not thinking straight.. too tired to tink? to try? im drain of all energy thats left.. i will go with the flow..

too tired.. jus too tired.. i need a rest..::

.:[D]@nI3L blogged on 1:40 AM:.
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